Thank you Brother Brogden for the quick reply. What about the fact I have turned on our Lord and said so many awful things after thinking atheism was the way? It’s a truly empty feeling in that way of living life not that it’s truly living. All of this has been a spiritual journey and wanting so deeply to find our Lord and give myself completely to him. Are my sins and my words against him too late to ever be forgiven? Brother I feel very lost. Thank you so much for your time.

This is not unusual. It is like a drug addict coming off drugs. You have a religious addiction you’re coming off of and finding that your relationship with God was/is all based on “church.” You’ve been following “church” instead of Jesus. Now there is a big void in your heart where “church” used to be. That void can only be filled by Christ; it cannot be filled by “church.” Seek the Lord with as much zeal as you have sought “fellowship with others” and you will find Him.

I don’t know where to start I was a believer then joined Mormon church resigned read all your articles on the Ekklesia. Joined a home church but was no better than Church. Finally became lost to point of atheism. Have said horrible things against the Lord and feel so empty inside. I’m so lost and feel it’s too late. Is my soul damned forever. Sorry if I’ve posted inappropriately but feel so very lost and alone. Thank you kindly.

Hear the cry of the millions?
Hear their desparate pleas
As they grope around in darkness
Needing Someone to meet their needs?

Chorus
Feed the multitudes My children.
Give them what is in your hand
It may not seem like much to you,
But it’s a lot to a starving man!
Feed the multitudes my children!
Give them What you have inside!
Then stand back and watch what happens.
What you gave will multiply.

“I have given you the keys to unlock their prison cells,
Bread from Heaven and Living Water
To fill up their empty wells.
I have placed gifts within you, so give them What you
have to give—
For in your hands you hold the Answer….
Bread and Meat so they may live!

“You have eaten from My table and drunk deeply from
My Well.
Won’t you share what you’ve been given to release
them from their hell!
Do not hide the LIFE within you!
Please share What you’ve been fed,
Or they’ll be lost forever!
Those for whom I died and bled! Chorus

“Oh, the fields are ripe unto harvest,
But the workers are so few.
Be willing, yielded vessels, so I may work through
you.
They’re like sheep without a Shepherd.
Oh, how that makes Me grieve!
Bring them in to My green pastures,
So they may rest and feed”. Chorus

We have so much inside us: Christ Himself!

I was deceived in thinking I needed some “significant” spiritual gift, or be this great orater, or be a trained opera singer, or a have a theological or seminary degree…to be in ministry.

I stepped out, “dieing” all the way. But you know, He did it! I “passed out” the Bread of Heaven, and He did the rest! And I got to watch Him work!

Sister Brenda “Better than You” from the “First
Self-Righteous Church” began to live as I died.

Today my dearest disciples are ex-prostitutes, ex-drug dealers, ex- convicts. They didn’t want my church. They wanted my Jesus and His LIFE!!

They teach me more, than I teach them! It is delightful to the freedom these un-religious walk in. So refreshing after my yrs. of being so “prissy” religious.

I had grieved him, and I knew it..